lovesgerard's Journals on Buzznet http://lovesgerard.buzznet.com/user/journal/ en-us <![CDATA[Mr.Rodriguez!]]> http://lovesgerard.buzznet.com/user/journal/3121741/ everyone makes mistakes, sometimes we think they're mistakes, when they simply arent, we learn from every step we take, life isnt the way we'd like it to be, nothing is perfect.

Brendon, we fall, we collapse, but we stand up again, and i hope you get over this quickly, because i really really really hate to see you like this.

This shouldnt be called in loving memory of, coz ur still alive, and even if you die, u'll always be in our hearts, especially mine..

i love you :]

<33

now who agrees with me ?!?!?!

]]> Buzznet lovesgerard 2008-10-06T10:28:09Z <![CDATA[err, TAGGED!]]> http://lovesgerard.buzznet.com/user/journal/2975621/  

uhh ive been tagged by mcrrthebest.. so uhh yeah...  

1)Where are you at the moment? - in my room

2) Why? - wasting time..

3) Give me 5 bestest persons at buzz.? xarealboywearseyelinerx, insidexsuicide, edus, xshirleyx, and umm mcrrthebest

4) Do you like yourself? - depends..

5) What do you like to do in your free time? - listen to music and go on buzznet

6) Do you think you're able to do everything you'd like to [right now, from that place, are you confident enough //not in future]? uhh, ha no

7) Do you think fighting makes sense? umm, no, but fighting is fighting, everyone fights

8) Was last question clever? - no reason for it.

9) Which places would you like to visit? the whole world! I wanna go to so many places, i cant even name all of them

10) Honestly, give me one person from buzz, who made you feel special, like their friend? uhh, ryry (xarealboywearseyelinerx) you make me feel pretty *hugs*

11) What's your mobile phone? - nokia, i love it! its thin and black and it suits mehh :P

12) Would you like to have (new) one? - no =P

13) Do you like to smile? uhh, depends really, but mostly, yeah

14) Write poems? - no i write songs..

15) Eat? - id die without food XD ofc ofc

16) English? - what about it ?

17) French? Id love to learn french

18) Slovene? -nope

19) Polish? - err noo

20)Sports? -i play soccer, and i think im good at it, and id love to play rugby too :D

21) Internet? - my life.

22) Do you think life gets better or worse day by day?- it has its ups and downs, i cant really tell ya, some days are good the others arent.

23) Are you nervous or calm person? -nervous

24) Is there any message you'd like to tell the world? making a big deal of nothing IS SUCH A WASTE! and its annoying ! gahh. ill give u an example! making shows about ppl who cant dress themselves properly, WELL INSTEAD OF WASTING THE MONEY TO BUY THEM NEW CLOTHES HOW ABOUT U FEED SOME STARVING KIDS WHO ARE ABOUT TO DIE !?

25) What's your favourite line in a song? - "I'd end my days with you in a hail of bullets" - MCR

26) The cutest thing you've ever heard? - there are lots of cute things ive heard , lol

27) do you love your parents? - love em more than anything :D

28)What would you do if tomorrow is the last day of your life? - I'd surround myself with people i love, or call them or sth

29)Do you often think about death? - uhh yeah

30)Is this the last question?  -__- no  

31) Are you sick of tag-tests? - this is the first one ..

I’m going to tag : insidexsuicide, xshirleyx, edus, mcrluvr4ever, xarealboywearseyelinerx, and umm the1revenge

]]> Buzznet lovesgerard 2008-09-06T06:27:00Z <![CDATA[I FINALLY HAVE IT =D]]> http://lovesgerard.buzznet.com/user/journal/2908471/ i finally have the black parade is dead! wooohooo XD

i never thought they would get it here!! gahh yaaay  =P

]]> Buzznet lovesgerard 2008-08-24T05:27:00Z <![CDATA[You're kidding, right?!]]> http://lovesgerard.buzznet.com/user/journal/2891021/ hmm okies so this is another song i've written .. and well i really hope u like it, please comment =] thanks!                            

 

 

You're kidding, right?

 

 

 

Is this real?

Is that you?

I can't believe this

After all we've been through

You come back

Like nothing happened

And pretend to be okay

I don’t even know you anymore

Do you get to stay?

 

I don’t care anymore

I don’t even know what to feel

You hurt me so bad

And that’s all I know

 

I really don’t know what to do

I'm confused about you

I'm afraid that if I let you in you'd leave once more

And then id drown in my fears again (I'D DROWN)

I'm afraid of you walking out that door

Is this gonna be like before?

 

This makes no sense

Why are you here?

THIS MAKES NO SENSE

I don’t know what to say

Are you really here to stay?

 

I don’t care anymore

I don’t even know what to feel

You hurt me so bad

And that’s all I know

This is so surreal

But you're not tripping me again

I won't fall for this

Sorry hun, but you'll have to deal

Thanks for your time =]

]]> Buzznet lovesgerard 2008-08-20T15:37:00Z <![CDATA[Departures]]> http://lovesgerard.buzznet.com/user/journal/2835181/ hey.. well this is a short song i wrote on the way back home in the airplane and umm, tell me what you think okay?!

It took me 2 friggin months to move on coz i used to like this dude for a long LONG time .. and oh well.. i guess time heals pain..

 

Departures

 

 

You left me here

Now im all alone

And it hurts, it hurts to the bone

But I wont let it get to me

Because I wouldn’t trade what we had for the world

We crossed oceans together

And now im walking alone with my scar wide open

 

I regret nothing

There's nothing to deny

My feelings are out to the world

No one seems to care

This doesn’t kill me

Im not gonna die

 

What are you waiting for?

There's an open door

Time doesn’t wait for us

I've packed a change of clothes

We're better off apart

And its time to move on

 

I regret nothing

There's nothing to deny

My feelings are out to the world

No one seems to care

Do you see my wound?

Do you see red?

This doesn’t kill me

I'm not gonna die

But baby, you'll drop dead

Please comment  =]

]]> Buzznet lovesgerard 2008-08-10T16:41:00Z <![CDATA[IM BACK HOME!]]> http://lovesgerard.buzznet.com/user/journal/2822161/ *dances*

oh fuck! this is so awesome! everything is so effin great now XD yaaaaaay .. god! im so happy!

hmm .. sooo .. what do i have to say? well nothing really, im just so glad to be back home =D

]]> Buzznet lovesgerard 2008-08-08T07:05:00Z <![CDATA[Im homesick.]]> http://lovesgerard.buzznet.com/user/journal/2710041/ I wanna be here .. but at the same time, i dont. its been 19 days now .. and im here in egypt with one of my closest friends.. and well i just feel so alone.. i know that im here with her .. but but i seriously feel  alone. i really need to talk to someone .. and i know that my friend would listen but i dont think that she would get it. it really sucks. its been 2 days now.. since ive felt like this, like crap. And i just wanna escape, i wanna be alone for a lil bit but i cant do anyting here >_<

maybe i should runaway. meh.

i know that tomorow will come and ill feel the same.. i dont really like being a pessimist but idk its just getting to me. i feel so alone. *hugs*

And the best part is that no one gets it. perfect.

]]> Buzznet lovesgerard 2008-07-19T19:57:00Z <![CDATA[I wrote you a song.]]> http://lovesgerard.buzznet.com/user/journal/2697911/  

-Burn

You welcome me to your life

You treat me well but dress in disguise

Without me knowing, you were actually grabbing a sharp stabbing knife

Just waiting for the moment to release your vexation and then the love dies

Like gasoline with fire you burn in my eyes now.

 

I loved you

You only hurt me

And I always let you

You gave up on me so easily

I will not sit here and wait for you

You never cared for me, and never gave a fucking shit

Like gasoline with fire you still burn in my eyes.

 

You threw everything away

Now we are apart and never to be

The memories will never leave me

You'll always be in my heart

It all slipped away

I tried eluding reality, tried going back to the start

But it's all fallen apart now; you closed your blinds on me

Like gasoline with fire you'll always burn in my eyes.

 

You burn

You burn in my eyes now

You burn

Ill fucking leave you alone

You burn….

 

 

 

hmm.. so let me know what u think .. i wrote this .. its a song.. hehe .. its how im feeling only im not so violent! okay !

i would REALLY like to know what all of you think so please comment.  

 

]]> Buzznet lovesgerard 2008-07-17T15:42:00Z <![CDATA[SICK]]> http://lovesgerard.buzznet.com/user/journal/2675321/
Sick
 
  'I cannot go to school today, '
Said little Peggy Ann McKay.
'I have the measles and the mumps,
A gash, a rash and purple bumps.
My mouth is wet, my throat is dry,
I'm going blind in my right eye.
My tonsils are as big as rocks,
I've counted sixteen chicken pox
And there's one more-that's seventeen,
And don't you think my face looks green?
My leg is cut-my eyes are blue-
It might be instamatic flu.
I cough and sneeze and gasp and choke,
I'm sure that my left leg is broke-
My hip hurts when I move my chin,
My belly button's caving in,
My back is wrenched, my ankle's sprained,
My 'pendix pains each time it rains.
My nose is cold, my toes are numb.
I have a sliver in my thumb.
My neck is stiff, my voice is weak,
I hardly whisper when I speak.
My tongue is filling up my mouth,
I think my hair is falling out.
My elbow's bent, my spine ain't straight,
My temperature is one-o-eight.
My brain is shrunk, I cannot hear,
There is a hole inside my ear.
I have a hangnail, and my heart is-what?
What's that? What's that you say?
You say today is...Saturday?
G'bye, I'm going out to play! '

-Shel Silverstein

i found this poem cute .. hehe .. although im really not interested in poems. like, at all.

He was an American poet, songwriter, musician, composer, cartoonist, screenwriter and author of children's books.

Silversteins (the band) name was taken from the famous  Shel Silverstein.

Shel Silverstein ~Sep 25, 1930 -- May10, 1999~

gahh i <3 silverstein! .. the band .. lol ..

]]> Buzznet lovesgerard 2008-07-13T16:51:00Z <![CDATA[IM ÍN EGYPT =O]]> http://lovesgerard.buzznet.com/user/journal/2614681/ hmm .. well this means im not gonna be able to come so much on buzznet and reply to all of u .. so ull have to excuse me.. and im not even using my laptop .. im using my friends ... so generous of her.. coz MY EFFIN LAPTOP WONT CONNECT TO THE STUPID CONNECTION!!!! i just wanna stab my laptop .. meh meh meh .. gahh i wont let it get to me .. although it did .. and i almost hit someone .. lol jk XD hah .. but yeah i was pissed ..
and omfg .. the guys here .. wtf !! they wont leave u alone .. they'd flirt with u wherever u go !! WHEREVER! it gets annoying .. and its not that i wouldnt like a guy hitting on me .. its just that the hit on who ever passes !! Wtf .. it deosnt even make u feel special.. ive been here only yesterday and im sick of the flirting .. gahh .. its like 7 dudes flirted with me until now .. meh meh .. Geezerrrrzz ... and i feel like im over dressed .. gahh .. everyone looks at u .. BUT IM NOT !!  i swear .. when i where like this  at home or somewhere in europe .. they dont look at me like this .. its not my fault they dont dress well .. meh .. its like they'd where pj's and walk down the street .. wth .. see.. meh .. its not me!!! im not over dressed .. gahh ..
is this too long ?
sorrehh ..
im here at cinnabon .. they have a wireless connection .. so yeah and the wire at home isnt working .. so .. yeahhh .. ill try to come on buzznet as much as possible .. but idk if i could reply to all of u .. excuse me..
*HUGS*
i lubbeerrrzzz you =P

]]> Buzznet lovesgerard 2008-07-02T11:13:00Z